How are we doing, ARMY fam? 🤧
If you’re like me, then you were either up all night in your feels or you woke up in your feels, or you are just a puddle of feels trying to make it through the day without leaking water all over the planet. I mean, how could we not make the desert become the sea with all these waterworks? 😭
I’m speaking, of course, of the ARMY-wide reaction to the release of the album PROOF and especially to the heart-melting music video for the lead single, “Yet to Come (The Most Beautiful Moment).”
The feels, man.
I don’t know why I didn’t prepare myself, but even if I tried, I was definitely going to be a teary-eyed goner no matter what. Like, there were some moments that really got me. I’m sure everyone has their moments that started the Niagara Falls effect, but these are mine.
JIN AND THE TRUCK
Some might remember it from the wild and crazy hi-jinks from the “RUN” music video. A lot of us recall that trip to the beach from the HYYH On Stage: Prologue short (Trigger Warning: themes of suicide and self-harm).
There are so many emotions, happy and sad, packed into the image from a Bangtan Universe perspective. It’s only now that I realize how many modes of transportation) (bus, truck, trains) made it into this video. Speaking of which-
NAMJOON AND THAT BLUE TRAIN CAR
I actually lost it at this part. From laughter, actually, but later on I did tear up over this. Like, if you are knee-deep in ARMY Twitter than you will have seen every theory, sincere and crack alike, surrounding this damn blue train car.
It became our Pepe Silvia.
And while many people laughed at the idea of this train car really meaning anything (I’m still not sure if it holds any separate significance in the story apart from ARMY stan Twitter’s obsession), seeing that train car eventually got me.
But the moment that really, REALLY got me?
THIS. RIGHT. HERE.
When I tell you that I transformed into a puddle of soggy soft sad goo-
But like HOW CAN YOU NOT?!
It wasn’t the direct call back to “No More Dream” that got me.
It was the way the visuals came full circle, how so much of the video brought everything full circle.
Because they started from a place of uncertainty, when so few people knew who they were or were on their side. And they’re ending in a place of victory, of achieved goals, and what were once impossible dreams that became many beautiful moments in life.
What really moved me is that revisiting the come up wasn’t done from a place of shame, or from bitterness, or even arrogance. There was just this overwhelming sense of peace and calm.
How many of us at this moment can face our past with such a sense of calm and peace, without instead feeling angry or embarrassed or hurt? Seeing them there in that bus made me think about not just my journey with them as an ARMY, but also how many ways being on this journey with BTS an ARMY has changed me as a person.
I sat here and thought about where I was mentally and emotionally nearly a decade ago. And I can honestly say, it was not a good place. AT ALL. And then I thought about all the things I became brave enough to do because of the love and support of my ARMY family and friends. It wasn’t always fun or easy, but I can honestly say that I am so grateful to have found BTS and ARMY when I did.
I’m not there yet, but I want to be at peace with everything in my past, in the same sense as what I felt seeing them on that bus at the very end of the “Yet to Come” video.
The Best Moments Are Yet To Come, Everyone!
It can be so easy to focus on the bad things that happen and forget about all the wonderful moments, the seemingly unbelievable moments you will one day be able to say, “Yeah, I was there for that!”
There are great things that I couldn’t even dream of at one point and so were never on my radar for BTS and the ARMY fandom, so I really am so excited to see what’s ahead, because I do believe that there are some awesome things coming our way.
*cough* concert and tour announcements *cough*